My glass is 1/3 full

Well, one more chemo down....4 to go! As I sit here at my computer I am slowly realizing that this process is going to be a long one. I knew before I even started treatment that my battle against cancer would be long, but the days after chemotherapy make me realize just how long. It's hard to explain to anyone that has not gone thru it themselves exactly how you feel after treatment, and what exactly the side effects are like. Either way, these are the times I find it the hardest to be positive. All I want to do is sleep. If they ever figure out a way to safely knock you out for 7 days after chemo and you can wake up having missed "the fog" then I am all for it! The second cycle of meds actually left me feeling "better" than the first, but still no where near myself. How silly it sounds to want to be able to mop your floors, or do your dishes without feeling like it will take the last bit of energy you have. Bring back those boring nights of doing nothing with the kids. Man, did I ever have it good! Just got to remind myself it will all be back in due time...

 I am still getting used to my G.I. Jane look...even though I do prefer it to my wig. I feel better walking around bald than I do looking like a drag queen. Everyone says the wig looks wonderful, and it is a very nice wig, but I feel like a 70 year old man trying to dress like a woman in it. Will I ever feel attractive again....I sure hope so!