Give Thanks...

I am Thankful....

Thankful that I am able to wake up in the morning
Thankful that I can hug my two wonderful kids
Thankful I have a house to go home to
Thankful I have a bed to sleep in at night
Thankful I have friends to keep me motivated and positive
Thankful I have a job to drag my butt to everyday
Thankful I have the most amazing family anyone could ever ask for
Thankful I have people that genuinely love me and care about my well being
Thankful for my doctors, my nurses, my health insurance
Thankful that God gives me the strength to keep fighting when I feel like giving up
Thankful I am even able to type this right now

And above all this I am Thankful that, for the first year of my life, I can honestly say I know what it means to be Thankful and to realize your blessings...I always thought I knew, but I didn't....now I do.

Thank you

Do I REALLY have to go???

I am sitting here waiting for Megan, my wonderful friend, who has volunteered  to be my chemo date for today. Chemotherapy treatment #5...ohh, how I have dreaded you but looked forward to you at the same time. I get this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach at the mention of the word chemotheraphy but I only have 2 more left...and after today I can say 1 more to go!! That excites me. As much as the thought of never ever having to do anything like this again hopefully ***knocks on wood** If I could, I would act like a little kid, kick and scream and hide in my closet to not have to go to this appointment. I am such a baby...I need to suck it up and face it head on, with a smile. Maybe there will be some cute bald guy in the chemo chair next to me that I can relate to...haha...a girl can wish can't she???

In a hurry, but don't want to miss a thing....

I cannot wait for these next 2 months to be over for alot of reasons....

1. My last chemotherapy treatment is December 10th....THANK YOU LORD!!!!!
2. No more saline fills into the tissue expanders....woohoo!!!
3. Less doctor appointments for alittle while
4. Bloodwork less often :)
5. Back to the crazy, sleepless schedule of working 2 jobs...yes, that's right....I miss my second job :(

I am really excited because my plastic surgeon is set to do surgery in January to put the implants in and finish reconstruction....before radiation. Which is wonderful for me because I thought I was going to have to deal with these expanders until at least March. I am counting down the days til surgery like a kid waiting for Christmas.

But as much as I would like to sleep thru these next two months to get to January....this is my favorite part of the year and I am not wanting to miss out on any family gatherings, special events and holiday parties. If only I could be done with all this before next week...lol...in a perfect world.
I know He already knows what I want for Christmas but GOD PLEASE MAKE ME HEALTHY AGAIN....Amen

Me and the kiddos on Halloween